Lesson Learned

Don't take a "Do You Have An Anxiety Problem?" quiz when you haven't left the house since Sunday and now it's Tuesday evening. Especially when you've spent those days: a.) panicking about impending funding application deadlines, b.) reading books about fascism that you should have read last week, and c.) feeling so stressed that you go into avoidance mode and spend too much time procrastinating on the internet. And especially when the questions worded as "Have you..." followed by a list of possible feelings ("Felt keyed up and on edge?" "Been unable to relax?"), and all you can answer is "Yes" or "No."

You end up answering "Yes" to, like, everything. And then the computer's all blinky lights and warning sirens and "You have a severe anxiety disorder! Get yourself to a doctor immediately!" (I only exaggerate slightly.)

But then you realise that you have been staring at the same wee basement suite walls for half a week, and you decide to go for a long walk. On that walk, you talk out all the fears about funding with your lovely husband, and conclude that things aren't so bad. And you buy a chocolate bar. And then suddenly you're no longer all shaky-jittery-stressed-out. In fact, you feel decidedly normal. Huh.