The Final Word

So, lots of people are posting the final word of their dissertations. Obviously, I'm far, far away from a first word, much less a last word. But I do have a completed thesis. And its final word is "power." In a sentence that includes the phrase "disillusioned and alienated."

I never said I wrote about cheerful stuff. Or non-angsty stuff.

So, I really should do something today, right? I have to confess that I don't do very well whenever my structure is taken away from me. I spend my whole year idealising about summer, and then I end up having some sort of depression episode when summer comes around, because I only define my life by stress. I lack what you would call "internal structure," or perhaps "motivation." I guess that would come as no surprise to you, gentle readers.

I've now had a full week of recovery from the semester. I am no longer allowed to use that as an excuse for sleeping in late and doing nothing all day. At least I'm recognising this now. Too often, I float around for weeks on end.

But the question still stands: how do I turn that into motivation to get work done? I guess I know where I have to start. I'm going to shower and get dressed, so that I'm no longer wandering around in my pyjamas. Then I'm going to do some sewing. I have all the supplies now, and so I have no more excuses. Maybe that'll get my brain moving. From there, I'll start fathoming comps lists.